Tuesday, April 24, 2012

dried up ink

For someone who calls herself a writer, I haven't been writing very much at all.

The idea of writing a blog shouldn't be so daunting for someone like myself. I wrote in my journal nearly everyday of my life for 15 years, I studied communications and public relations in University and College...and get this, I write for a living. But still, there is some fear that comes with this blogging territory.


I created this me+ blog space two weeks ago. Every now and then I would visit it. Click around. Contemplate profile photo options and switch back and forth between different background patterns. All the while, many thoughts of what I could write about were passing through my mind - but each idea was coupled with a reason why I shouldn't (emphasis on the "I") post something like that.

I think I figured out why I'm so hesitant to get this thing started. Its the same reason that I would "lie" in my journal. (What if someone reads it one day!?)

I think too much about what people think of me. I think too much about what people think of my thoughts.

There I said it. I'm preoccupied with the thought that people will read what I write and ... well, I'm not exactly sure what I think they are going to do to harm me - but whatever it is, I never wanted to find out.

Even in conversation I'm hesitant to speak my mind. I hesitate because I don't want to offend, I don't want to be misunderstood, I don't want to be wrong.

Mostly, I lack the confidence in believing that what I want to share is worth listening to.

That being said, I am picking up my digital pen and as of today, I am a blogger.

me+ will primarily be a place just for me: to write, to ponder, to express myself - whatever it turns out to be. And should anyone find some interest in what I have to say, I'd be happy to have you "follow" along.

So, if you're with me...stay tuned!